Help I'm scared, I don't know what is happening to me so I'll explain, Im 37 years old, physically fit, gym etc split up with my ex of 14 years about 2 years ago and every new relationship I start I've been unable to "get it up".
Having never had a problem in my previous relationship (although i used porn), I turned more to porn to "test myself" and thought everthing is ok, it still works, this is maybe performance anxiety and carried on this practice. I though I'll get over it. I finished these 2 relationships thinking they were'nt my type.
Then in March last year I met the girl of my dreams and the same thing happened.
I decided to quit porn straight away to see what would happen.
I decided to masterbate to thought only, it did'nt work, so then Clothed images of women, it didn't work, I panicked, I could not for the life of me get an erection! Unaware I'd "flatlined" plus I'd lost my libido(I did'nt know what flatline was then I had no idea what was happening with my body and was not aware of this phenomenon) I went to the doctors had all the tests they came back clear, went to see a specialist "Anxiety" he said and prescribed me ciallis, this worked to some degree and i had alot of sex (which was wrong, maybe with the wrong train of thought) but i was fascinating about other things in orders to achieve some sort of erection and my mind fluctuated from one thing to the other trying the best mental image to get and keep an erection. I thought get a few encounters under my belt this will pass.
Now and again maybe once every 2 months I would test myself, still in flatline I think the only trouble was is that it took me ages to get an erection, max i could get was 50%. I went back to the specialist and he said keep on ciallis until December and get the anxiety totally out your system.
So here I am now Feb 1012 I have hardly looked at Porn for 9 months, only tried to masterbated to thought about twice a month recently which was a disaster each time, and not had an Orgasm for 1 week and my erection is still 50% with my girl and non existent alone.
Fortunately my girlfriend is very understanding and puts it down to extreme anxiety, and willing to do anything to get me through this, even a "thorough reboot"
I cut out the Porn and Masterbation nearly 100% over the last 9 months but not the orgasm, would this have had an effect on my progress?
I still feel I'm in flatline though, I think I still have serious ED, has anyone else experienced anything like this? Please help