It's just a vicious cycle for me. For the past half year i've been trying to rid porn from my life. It usually goes like this....2 weeks, no pmo, feeling great, confident, full of energy, heart is opening up etc. Then out of nowhere i find an excuse to give in...back to square one.
This weekend it happened again. Two weeks no PMO followed up by a three day binge with super-long porn sessions. The hangover from the binge is perhaps the worst i've experienced...depression, apathy, no desire to socialize, headaches, isolation.
I don't know where to go from here. I can go a certain period of time but in the end i keep falling back into this. I feel so amazing without PMO, it just makes no sense why i keep returning to something so painful for me. It's like my primitive brain is over-riding what's best for me for a few fleeting moments of pleasure.
Just wondering how to get out of this cycle for good.