I have been posting here and thank you so much for your support so far.
This has been 125 days and my libido is not back at all. I have been a bit desperate.
I'm 36 years old, a porn user since 15 and a "heavy" user since 24 or so. My porn use escalated to the point I couldn't get an erection unless I used my hand and saw an extreme material. Even with that sometimes I had to force an orgasm with my penis half erected.
I am healthy other than this and I have a social life, I eat healthy diet, I started exercising recently.
Anyway, since it's been so long and I got really desperate, I half gave up and wanted to see if I could even really get an orgasm. So today, I decided to masturbate using light material (sexy nude pictures). I know this is bad, but the below is what happened.
My penis didn't react to it AT ALL.
It is a strange feeling. Like after you have an orgasm, your penis is too tired to get up and more you touch it the smaller it gets. It was like that.
I gave up the idea of masturbating within 2-3 minutes.
It is strange because before I started no PMO 4 months ago, I was able to masturbate at least.
Another strange thing; If I lie down on my back and touch my penis and lightly strike it on my underwear, it gets bigger even without fantasy. It doesn't get big enough to sustain the erection for intercourse, but it gets really big. However I noticed if I touch my penis directly, it gets smaller and does not react much (has to touch it on my underwear to get bigger) !! Also I tried to see a sexy nude picture while touching it just for experiment(I know it's bad), and it got smaller...I don't know what the heck is going on...
It's like my penis is saying, "Hey, too much!". It seems I'm still experiencing flat-lining but compared to other guys it's taking way too long.
Marnia said my testosterone *could* be low on my other post and I'm going to check it as soon as possible. But at the same time the cause does not seem to be testosterone because of the following 2 reasons.
1: I had libido before starting no PMO
This is strange but I had a "libido" to want to be with a girl or watch porn before starting no PMO. Now I don't.
2: Morning erections
Though this is weak, I do have a morning erection now sometimes (I would say every couple of days).
I will check my testosterone level anyway soon but this is what I thought about testosterone.
My hopeful guess is it is just REALLY long flat-lining, but I gotta say it is getting so stressful. Does it look like flat-lining to you guys?
Any comments, thoughts are appreciated.
Again sorry there are similar posts of mine on this forum.
I could have just updated one of my former threads but I thought it's worth a new topic.
Maybe I should write a blog...