Hello!! I just wanted to say that after a long struggle and a bunch of up's and down's, I have finally made it back to week 1! I have also joined NoFap, which helped me a lot. Those guys have tremendous stories, and their feedback is really quick. The first couple of days were hard, but I am learning to cope with school/work/PMO and the pressures that each can bring! Happy to have made it to a week, but I want to reach 4 weeks, and then maybe 90 days!
I leave in a few days to work at a very isolated job up North where there is very little contact with the outside world. Ive done it before but I started going a little loopy before. I was hoping not to come back but I need the money for school and was unable to find another job that pays as well as this one.
Slithering out of the cave
Covered in filth
The worm seeks water and light
Plan 8,962: Start telling the truth. So much is in my head and edited. I want to stop the manipulation and coercion.
Oh yeah, less tolerance for abuse and more compassion for myself.
Plan 8,961: Develop my "I Don't Give A Shit" attitude
I find myself drawn back into this world again recently. I am committed relationship of about 8 months. I entered into the relationship with a good foundational awareness of how orgasm affects me psychologically and physically, and stayed orgasm free for a few months. But my partner seemed determine to make me come and he eventually succeeded! Now I am in about a once-a-week rhythm of orgasm, sometimes up to 10 days. It's not quite working for me!
Just making a new blog entry to talk about what I've been experiencing recently on our journey.
Hey guys it's been couple years since I didn't post here, (I'm not a big internet blogger) but I wanted to tell you guys what's going on. So earlier I found this site cuz I was having a porn problem which led to me thinking I was gay or something. So it's been 2or -3 years and I will still admit I still view porn but at the same time there are some days in which I control my self or just don't view it. For example mon-thur I might view porn but then when it comes to fri-Sunday I'll just not view it.
Had a great night out tonight! Currently on my third day of no PMO and man I can see differences! At work yesterday I had such a bad fog, but instead of jerking off when I got home I called a female friend and we went to the bar. I was socializing and enjoying the music. It was such a confidence boost!! My goal is to reach a week. The fog is coming and going but mostly going. I feel so happy at this moment. I don't want to get too excited though until I reach day 7!!!! Ahh wish me luck. Tomorrow after work I'm going to a club with some lady friends! Ahh! #MojoSwitchedOn !
Hello guys, I find it necesarry to share my story with you, because I believe I am in a position where my life is completely in chaos and since I can't tell a soul about this, I thought I might get a bit comfort by writting this to you. On top of that, the leve of help I need is enormous so.... Yeah.