Hi to all! I'm new here :)
I haven't masturbated since 1 week ago, when I relapsed after 5 days. I watched porn for 10 years, (I'm 22) and that gave me ED. Everytime I wanted sex with my girlfriend, I simply couldn't do it... I masturbated every day, some days even 2 times, "it was easy, felt good and at least I was entertanied a few minutes" I thought. My porn was based 80% in images (drawings , mostly) and 20% videos. That gave me like 2000 images, collected in like 6 years. (I put my old collection in a DVD, very well taped, just because I'm not ready to erase all these drawings, but I'm sure some day I will).
Since the beginning of my reboot, I blocked every website that I used to visit, just to keep me safe, but these last days I'm having a lot of curiosity, even anxiety, because I want to see all these new drawings that I'm sure a lot of artist uploaded.
So... today I saw some of these drawings in other website but not masturbated, I was very curious...
So I want to ask...that's not good, right? Porn is the reason I've ED, but that anxiety I said before grows every day , just thinking "I could watch all these drawings now...". I don't want masturbate, but I want see them.
The main solution is to keep me out of these websites, right? :/
In other hand, my girlfriend lives in another city, so I can only see her every 2-3 months. The last week we were together, I explained her my problem, and she's supporting me on my "duty". I want to ask: Can we masturbate each other when we meet (in like 1-2 months)? I don't know if only a few times every 3 months is harmful to my reboot....(and I think I'm not ready for sex, at least for now)
Thanks to all! (and sorry if I made grammar mistakes, my english isn't very good xD)