All right. So here I am, sitting in my home office after spending almost 30 minutes on internet porn. Nothing new. The same ritual follows. I flip through different porn sites and look for a promising one. I skip to the 'good' part and then 'release' myself. If not good, I go through several online clips within the same sitting. In the process, I do not think too much about my impulse to do it. Once done, I realize how much time and mental energy it takes on me. And this is a notice that I am writing to myself and others alike on this forum so that I can get some help with my recovery. I, though as anonymous as this sounds, want to be known to the little community and want to share my experience of mixed feelings.
Having started with that, I also want you readers to know that I am a very fit and healthy individual in a happy marriage. I am in my late twenties. I have been trying to analyze my issue from multiple angles. While underlying reasons might be a matter of debate, I come to the infirm conclusion that it is a habit that is to be abandoned. Watching internet porn ( and more importantly masturbating) is really getting to me. I want to try (this is my second or third try) and change this habit. If you have some words of encouragement or tips to share, I welcome them with an open heart. My appreciation will go towards you if you lend me a hand in this very difficult process of quitting. With this, I declare my once and ultimate public war against my personal internet addiction and masturbation.
But today is day 0.