I have a problem

Submitted by JeanValJean on
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Hello everyone, I am 18 years old and about to go to university and I think I have a problem with porn. I really hate it....but somehow or the other I end up in situations where my senses take over me. Afterward, I feel extremely guilty and even somewhat suicidal since I used to be very spiritual and used to think that I was very close to God. Now I feel that this habit has ruined me. You dont know how much stronger I feel after I found this site. Friends, I vow to be free by the end of this year. Anyone have any tips? Thanks.

Hi JVJ

Welcome! I'll enable you to blog, as journaling seems to help. So does lots of friendly social contact with others, exercise, good diet (minimum of sugar and corn chips Wink ), time in nature, prayer/meditation...AND being gentle with yourself. Believe me, God is just as close to you as ever. He's actually rooting for you to get yourself back in balance. The more balanced you feel, the easier it is to align effortlessly with the divine flow/will...and the more enjoyable and productive your life.

This porn detour is just a trick that a primitive part of your brain has played on you. It's your "mating neurochemistry gone wild." It's not a big deal, even if it made a big mess (in your opinion). Learning to sort it out will teach you a lot of really useful things about yourself and your sexuality. So this could be a blessing in the long run. Very like JVJ's story.

Did you read this post?
http://www.reuniting.info/node/1722

*big hug*

Les Miserables

is probably my favorite novel.
It still amazes me that after years of struggle with porn I found the key here. For me it was a matter of self definition.
I am a loving person.
I am a man.
I am a man who no longer seeks orgasm.

Of course, the Lord does provide, but I ain't looking for it. I'm not trying to make it happen. It is no longer the Grail of My Existence. And when an orgasm is given to me, it's not a failure. I'm just going to have to deal with some hangover (thank you Marnia). I'll have to be extra loving to my self and others. Then that becomes my discipline, to be more loving, not to STOP jacking up and jacking off. Hating, shame, and trying to stop will not lead to success but to failure and incrimination.
Seek love