I have serious issues and need help. I am constantly fantasizing about my mother-in-law, even though I have a beautiful wife.
I constantly MB over images of her, I've made photoshop images of her, and even posted pics of her on sex forums (I usually delete them a few minutes later) - even resorting to posting her pics on webcam users, and watch them M, pretending I am her. I always feel terrible afterwards. What the hell is wrong with me?
This problem has been with me for years. I used to MB over pics of my aunt when I was younger, but that was all. Since the internet has surfaced, I am now one of these internet porn addicts - but the difference is it all usually revolves around my mother-in-law. I tried kicking the habit recently, for about 2 weeks. It was fairly easy to do because I was working away from home, and there are no pics of her anywhere. But soon as I came home, I know there are pics of her stored on the home PC - and the resistance is too much. Within a couple of days I'm at it again. I am addicted and need to kill this nasty addiction I have. It is like porn addiction, only 10 times worse. And I dare not share any of this with my wife. Coming clean about being addicted to porn is one thing, coming clean about this is something else entirely.
I have a successful job, successful marriage, yet I resort to behaving like this behind closed doors. It is making me ill, because I want to feel normal again, and not have thse horrible thoughts in my head. And I have the usual side effects that porn addicts have - tired, sleepless nights, hard to show emotions, etc.
I doubt anyone else has this problem like I have, or do they? If someone has any ideas how I can overcome this, I'm all ears.