Today is my seventh day without pornography or masturbation. But it's only the fourth day without orgasm (I had a dream orgasm two days after my porn/masturbation relapse).
I'm feeling pretty good. The first day after the porn relapse, I felt very irritable. The first day after the dream orgasm, I felt a bit irritable. But then I started feeling back to my normal self again. It only took me a couple days.
A couple days after my dream orgasm, my friend girl came over to hang out. She is currently in a relationship, and our friendship is purely platonic, but she's a bit of a touchy-feely flirt. Which I don't mind at all because she is very attractive and has an amazing body. But ya, we were getting a bit cuddly and touchy-feely on the couch, and I was worried it would turn me on to the point that I would go and masturbate to porn after she left. (So ya, on second thought, maybe our friendship isn't purely platonic, and there is some underlying sexual tension).
I started feeling sulky later in the week. I was worried that it was a leftover hangover effect from the relapse a week ago. But I think it was just from the situation. I went out on the town with a friend. We met up with my flirty friend girl and her boyfriend and another friend. I overheard my flirty friend girl telling someone else about how her one friend is coming to town to visit her (today). This friend of hers happens to be my ex girlfriend (oh, and she's coming with her new boyfriend. ahh!). I was upset that she wasn't going to visit me, but I tried to be cool about it and accept that she and I have drifted, whereas she and my flirty friend girl have remained tight friends (girl power!). I think that if I had been in the first day of hangover from orgasm, I would have taken the news harder. But still I was a bit sulky.
At least the stress of the news didn't trigger a relapse. When my ex and I broke up a couple years ago, I believe my porn addiction really started to escalate. I think I saw it as something that would help me get over the heartbreak, but it actually made it much worse. So I'm glad that now I have the information on the effects of orgasm indulgence, and so now I won't allow the stresses of post-heartbreak drama cause me to binge.
Also, I think I was a bit sulky because the night took me to a bar with a crappy loud band and a bunch of loud horny drunk guys trying to yell pickup lines at pretty girls. But despite my sulkiness, I managed to be social and talkative and jokey. And I think I was able to do that because my confidence has been going up the more time I've had to recover from my relapse. (As I said, I seem to start feeling normal again after a couple of days from abstaining, so i can't wait to see how I feel after two weeks).