Hello everyone I'm pretty new to this whole process and decided to go cold turkey around the 20th of April. I lasted for two weeks without porn and very little masturbation =) but on the 15th day I suddenly relapsed. =( During those two weeks I experienced many moments of clarity and a stronger awareness of my habit as well as feelings of spiritual growth. It was one of the greatest weeks of my life both on a physical, psychological, and spiritual life. Yet despite making it past two weeks, I suddenly relapsed on the 15th. Relapses have continued and my porn abstinence is becoming weaker and weaker. At this point I realize the damaging effects porn has both to my mind, and to the people I interact with. I now believe porn played a strong role in the relationship problems I have been having with my girlfriend as well as my strong mood swings. This is why porn is so scary for me, in that it resembles a drug but takes on a whole different form. Ultimately I am not only doing this for myself but for the people I love, my friends, my girlfriend, my parents, and anyone I interact with! even if there not aware of the addiction because these people are affected by my moods and state of mind. Thus these relapses have taught me I need to try harder to overcome this and that I need the support of a community like this one. I have decided to install the K9 software after seeing it recommended by members on the forum, but need someone to hold the password. I know it can be difficult holding a responsibility like this one, but I really need the help. If someone would like me to hold their password please just ask, I would me more than willing to do so. Anyways much love to everyone and stay strong!