Just wanted to comment. One of my main goals in this whole process was to regain sex drive toward real women. About 14 months ago i found myself not being able to perform and wondering why, i came across porn addiction. I have had my struggles. Throughout that period until april i went through ups and downs. At one point i had limited my MB with porn to about 3 times a week, from about 15. I was then able to have sex again with this girl i was then seeing, i thought things were ok. However i found myself not enjoying the sex, afterward i would always want to MB, cause to me it was just more exciting and fun. Thats when it hit me this thing was bigger than i thought, i actually prefered MB to real women.
So i have been clean now for the last 6 weeks. No porn, one or two dream o's, and i did MB twice with no fantasy or anything. The biggest thing i have noticed, i really don't have the urge to MB anymore. Its one of the coolest things ever. I feel like i have broken through. I don't even think of it anymore. When i used to come home from work, first inclination would be to MB. When i used to feel depressed, first thing i would turn to would be to MB to feel good, when i would maybe have a couple beers, first thing id wanna do at home is MB with porn. I don't feel this way anymore, when the urges come up i can quickly fight them off. I believe MB controled me, but now i control it. Its power over me has weakened significantly. Things still do trigger me to want to MB again, but again their easier to stop. And i believe things will get even better.
What i have learned, its not about just stopping MB, its about changing your lifestyle. Once you go along time without something, your body gets used to not needing it. Thats why i guess the first couple weeks are the toughest, as said on here its about breaking that cycle of addiction. Its funny i had a friend of mine tell me he was MB using porn only about 4 times a week, and he was losing desire for his partner. So he stopped doing it and things turned back to normal. Then i thought of me doing it like 15 times a week, and it just wasnt good.
So what am i trying to say, things do get easier. They really do. My next step is to find a girlfriend. I'm hoping when i do and we do decide to have intercourse that once again its fun. I know i'll still be a little nervous, but i'm very optimistic. We'll see how things go.