Hello Reuniting! It's been a long time since I've been here and I'm happy to say that my return is willing and happy. After a major hiccup last spring, my wife and I have been walking our path together again for a year. Although we both wanted to mature our sexuality, it hasn't happened at all. Mostlly due to my own cycle of desire. It's really crazy. I could say one thing, believe that abstinance was worth serious inquiry, but when things heated up in the slightest, I would throw all high notions out the window and just wallow in indulgence and pleasure. What can I say? I'm a fully-functioning, highly-programmed male robot.
But ever since being on this site and learning the things I've learned, I've put a microscope to myself and have seen the constant demons that I'm living with. So I pushed forward and went for it. I've just passed the 3 week mark with no orgasm of any kind. And it was easy, mostly because I'm working very hard at the moment and don't have much energy for much else, but it doesn't matter. I feel great, as if I'm approaching an innocence I'd forsaken a long time ago. Our relationship is going great, and indeed it does feel easier to be in love. It's playful and light.
I do seek advice and/or commentary if you're up for it. Agression. Man, o man, sometimes I feel like I could flip out. I never do, but seriously, there's this agressive edge to me that, I think, constant orgasm had dulled. Any thoughts, tips, hints?
I've been 'canceling' all the sexual thoughts that come up and am surprised at my objectifiying nature. I mean, it had become so easy for me to see women as only means to male pleasure. I'm a bit ashamed, and feeling very unhuman. Any experience with that?
Like I've said, I've gone 3 weeks. She's happy, I'm happy. And I guess, we'll keep going this way for a bit longer and see what happens.
Love and Light!