Hello. My name is ____ and I am a recovering porn addict. Throughout the years, I have developed many addictions. I spent hours (2-4) per day playing videogames. I eventually "Sobered up". I interacted with friends occassionally. I became better after I stopped the video game addiction (I still play, but at max n hour per day). I started masturbating at the age of 14. Some periods were... Interesting. I could masturbate 4 times a day at the "interesting" periods which could last for a week. Well. I masturbated at least once a day. Whenever I was abroad or not in the house, I did not masturbate. Those days were pain. I had erections all the time...
At the age of 18 I discovered free Internet porn sites. Haha, odd days. I masturbated for 3 hours per day watching porn during Summer, ejaculating several times (2-5 times). I decreased the porn-time when I had school but still watched it like 30-60 min per day with a few porn-free days. I think I went to hard on my brain and the little guy since I noticed two months ago I had ED when I tried to have intercourse with a girl for the first time. I was not the least bit aroused even though I wanted her... Sad. We broke up a month later. I did not care that much when I was with her, but I became depressed the day after the failed intercourse. But I suddenly realised: I had only been masturbating to porn for the last 18 months (I am 19, nearly 20). I read about recovery through abstinence and I have tried it. I have lasted for 32 days with no porn and no masturbation (They are going to the dump). :) My morning wood have started returning (Although they are not rock hard yet like they used to be).
I read about that my dopamine receptors may be injured. Could my earlier video game addiction have been damaging them while the mb/porn utterly destroyed them? Maybe I should abstain from videogaming too? I will try to post my progress as much as I can (I am a university student). I drink green tea every day in hope of speeding the recovery. I miss those days where I could get an erection by kissing a girl. But maybe they will return one day :) I have lasted for 32 days and I hope to last 'til the day I dare to have intercourse with a woman!
I will succeed.