Hey everyone. I am 26 and I am an addict :) Seriously though, I am hurting so much psychologically from weak erection. And weak erection made me to be very cautious in everyday relations with women. I am very outgoing and social person but when it comes to intimes I back up; instead of pressing in I backing up because I know I will fail. How pathetic is this? Well....that's me. I guess we tend to look past our real problems. I was smirked every time I heard the word impotency. I thought it does not apply to me: "Impotency is when you can't get it up, right? But I can (when mastubate in front of a screen), so I am allright." I guess I was just escaping the thought.
What is so different today? Well, not much, except that after moving to another country I realised how different I am from "normal men". I know now that yes I am impotent; i can't satisfy lady. This bloody thing is just not hard enough to do the job. I am pretty desparate now, especially now when I am a part of a circle of (i guess u can call it successful) young men my age who doing great in every respect; they all frequently publicly disappear with pretty ladies. It is expected of me as well, but.......i can't be honest, it would destroy me. Don't get me wrong, not that I don't want sexy times myself, but if I am not pressed I will just keep hiding it, and ignoring the problem.
I hope my problem is in excessive masturbation (everyday for 10 years or so) and internet porn. Let's see if abstinence will bring any results. I trust you guys. Do I have any other choise? Nope. Today it is my second day without selfsatisfaction.
Not sure why I am writing this thread. Maybe because I am hoping to get 1, 2 responses that impotency is reversable.
Meanwhile I guess I will have to resort to fake viagra (whatever I can find in these Chinese sex shops). I gotta live up to this social status; or get back into fake world I had before. Additionally, I wasn't able to sustain any relationship because of my impotency. It kinda made me lonely, without anyone to talk to about real "stuff". I have been always hiding it, covering lonely feeling with work or social events. I guess it is a growing bubble which will burst eventually. If nothing will change I can imagine myself in 30's, alone, with little experience with ladies. omg, i would be so depressed. I affraid it will happen, though everything is going this way.
ok, I am signing out. if anyone reads this, wish me luck (or better advise which type of fake viagra I should get in one of these chinese sex shops)