I guess i'll introduce myself first...
I'm 21 years old, have been addicted to masturbation ever since I was 11 or 12. I visited this site a year ago cause I wanted, and still want to quit this addiction. In the past, the longest I held off orgasm was 3 weeks, and I was on vacation with family, so I couldn't do it while they were around. During that time though, I was looking through sites that would have triggered the urge to masturbate, but I held off cause I was with company.
Since then, I fell back into the same trap over and over again. I stop for a week, next week I masturbated to no end. I realize I completely have to stop looking at those sites cause of the triggers, but it isn't a simple task. You see, I have this fetish of pregnant women and BBW (big women) and the way they are shaped just drives me wild. It sucks cause in general I love all types of women, and that is what makes it so hard. I easily get turned on to just about any woman I see because I admire and see beauty in any woman one way or another, big or small. I think I might have an addiction to the internet also cause I know it contributes to the triggers. I just feel like I have to go on the net or else I would feel awkward, out of place, and just feel weird.
I tried everything to stop. I tried to stop going to those fetish sites and it didn't work. I tried to stop going online, didn't work. I always gravitate towards the computer cause it's nothing else to do at my house. I also get lonely and that triggers the urges too! Just yesterday I relapsed after going without going to those sites AND limiting my computer use for 5 or 6 days, but on day 3 I went to a site that triggered the urge to masturbate. It's not porn i'm looking at either, a few of the sites are either those celeb sites that show the paparazzi pics and non-nude fetish sites.
So how do I attempt to deal with these addictions I have if it isn't technically porn i'm watching?