When I was a child I remember being very outgoing with lots of motivation. That all changed when I was about 14. Now that I think about it. It's the same time I began to start a internet porn addiction. I had my own computer in my room. I would spend my entire weekends and evenings watching porn, often even skipping sleep. This has continued into my adult life and I am now 25. I have suffered bad social anxiety, and a lack of any motivation. I never connected these things together. I also, never really knew how bad I was addicted until I tried to quit. I realized I can only get aroused with porn. I had been in a great relationship and lived with my love for two years. She ended up cheating on me and I know a lot of it had to do with the fact that I wasn't showing her much sexual interest. Instead, I would look at porn when she wasn't at home or was asleep. After our break up I started smoking heavily. I started dating a new friend and realized I had developed ED even with porn. I thought it was because of the smoking so I quit cold turkey. I've always been sensitive to drugs and chemicals. I experienced a very extreme withdrawal. Like I was was in a living nightmare. I started on a ssri and then to St. John's Wort to deal with the withdrawal. I felt decent for a few months but all with these I had a total drop in libido and my ED worsened. So again I quit cold turkey. I've since experienced with worst part of my life for the last few weeks. I feel totally disconnected. With no emotions besides worry and depression. It scares me not to have emotion. I can not cry or smile. I can't connected with people. The only good thing is that my ED has seemed to gotten a lot better, but I still have no libido. During the last week I came across these sites. I've realized that my porn addiction has made a great impact on my life. Would you recommend quitting now or waiting until my ssri and st. john's wort withdrawal has improved? Have any of you experienced a loss of emotion? Does it get better with time? I feel so desperate. I've never shared these things before with anyone. I'm scared I will never be normal again. I want to feel better so I can help and make people happy in this world that is full of so much suffering. Thank you.