Greetings fellow Earthlings! :D
I am in quite the euphoric state at the moment (hence the quirkiness) because this is the happiest I've been in almost two years. Long story short I went through a terrible life changing event that left me physically and psychologically scarred. It left me with frequent reoccurring headaches and even panic attacks, which were causing me lower back pain. Until recently I was even having trouble fighting off colds, and had even been to the doctor a few times (each doctor giving me something different and telling me different possible causes of my ongoing illness). Then, in spite of the fact that I was a vegetarian for some time, I decided I would try something organic to heal me. I proceeded to scour the internet and found various home remedies. More and more my symptoms pointed to the cause of my illness being stress. So I began meditating again (something I'd put off for a while) and practicing relaxation techniques.
Reading about the stress certain foods can put on the body led me to a page about different diets and the benefits of being a vegan. If the facts about the health benefits weren't enough, on one vegan site I found a movie called Earthlings.... And I've had no desire to eat meat, use or consume anything that's inorganic or comes from animals, or go to the zoo or circus since. This was about two days ago.
I continued to search and educate myself on being a vegan, when I stumbled across this website (30 bananas a day.com) and really found my support community. Today I read a post that mention Karezza which led me here..... And within minutes of reading about it I knew there was really no going back for me. (I've been celibate for almost 6 months now and was looking for a way to make future relationships more intimate and meaningful.) To me Karezza just made sense, the same way going vegan and even being celibate did).
So I've got this really good friend..... (sorry I spaced out for a second there :) ) who was more than willing to try this with me. .....Words simply cannot describe how beautiful my first experience was. It was like sex for the first time, except for the fact that we didn't even go that far, we just spent an hour or so kissing and touching, basking in each others radiance. (Literally, at one point when I closed my eyes I saw a bright light despite the dimly lit room.) I believe it was his energy, or even our energy colliding positively. Now when I even hear his voice or our eyes meet it sends this wave of unrivaled bliss over me and I can't help but smile like I never forgot how......
When we started I had a slight headache and some lower back pain and now I feel the best I've felt in years. This was literally the most relaxing and fulfilling experience I've had in my life so far. And I thank fate and the universe for changing my entire perspective on life, love and happiness in just a few short days. Life is funny like that sometimes. You have to survive the bad in order to truly appreciate the good. And with my cold symptoms subsiding and this excellent specimen of man beside me I KNOW I won't ever go back to that self-destructive lifestyle....
Just thought I'd share my happiness with some more like minded peoples! :D Peace and love everyone!