First of all thanks to everyone here for sharing, all your stories and contributions are of great help to men like myself.
My story – I’m 33 and have been masturbating regularly for a long time. I think I started fairly young around 12 or 13 but did not do so regularly of course, b/c privacy was not very regular, parents, siblings etc. But I can remember 10 to 12 years ago when I discovered internet porn – old dial-up was mostly just pictures – I got hooked.
It is almost insane what is available on the web now compared to 1999!
Anyway, last year I was going through some counseling and stuff due to DWI that I got in 2009. A lot of what was talked about was addiction to substances, and is very similar to what YBOP videos talk about. I did realize at that time that I was using PMO to “get high” as it were. And this became more and more my “drug” of choice because I had to give up drinking, and pot.
Well when I was done with my court obligations I kept up my PMO habits and ended up meeting a girl. That led to ED issues only during sex. And ultimately that led me here. I had read articles in psychology today (Marnia I think) and was aware that I needed to do something; ie. stop, cut down.
I have been able to abstain before but only for 20 to 30 days. I attempted it again a couple of weeks ago. I had no porn for 2 weeks, but after week one I was horny and masturbated on the weekend. After that, the second week became harder for me to stay on course. I could not stop looking at clothed, bikini, model pics etc. And last weekend I had a relapse into masturbation with internet porn. I know it is an addiction for me, and I need to attempt a reboot. So far I’m on day 3 no PMO. I know I can do this, but I also know it is not easy.
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