I'm 25 and like many I've been using the internet and masturbation together since I was 12. Until a few years ago I just used sexy images and my imagination but since I made the move to porn things just really began to escalate. Thankfully I came across your site earlier this year and the information has helped me in understanding what is actually going on. Unfortunately over the past few months I've found myself in a cycle which I'm really struggling with. The cycle is as follows
1- 2-3 weeks without PMO
2- Decide to just 'check' a porn site to see whats new, then end up succumbing and climaxing.
3- I will spend the rest of the week looking a porn on and off until I start getting resistant and need to look at harder stuff.
4- Around this time I realize how deep into the rabbit hole I am and pledge to quit again.
Going without a few weeks is relatively easy for me but the problem is even one week feels like a really long time and my determination starts to fade because I think I've already 'won'. Then eventually I come across a trigger, a sexy scene on tv or something and my primitive brain gets prepped and with little resistance I log-on to the net and get off.
My first priority is to simply cut the porn so I'm considering the notion of just masturbating without porn the second I start to consider it.
Also my reasons for wanting to quit are
- My mood plummets, I get easily annoyed with people
- It puts me in a one track state of mind all I can think about is porn
- Disrupts my sleep, when I go to bed I have a kaleidescope of porn in my head
It's annoying to find myself doing the same thing over and over but I keep trying with new strategies until I'm free from this.
Thanks for reading :) any advice would be most welcome!
p.s can you enable blogging for me please :)