Reboot camp - A lurker takes the plunge
Day 20, no PMO. I'm a 46yo male and finding this site has been a revelation. The reboot journey has been a huge challenge. I'm aiming for 100 days. 100 days = 100%. I'm hoping my counting days obsessiveness will dissipate, but now it's something to (...ahem) hold on to. I'm in almost compete flatline territory. One semi hard-on during the night days five in. It's scary because my comfort zone is being challenged for the first time in many years. Hell, he's been my best buddy since 12 or 13, and now it's like he doesn't want to know me. Like any fix, it was there to soothe the pain, get me to sleep, ease the stress, kill the boredom, even celebrate the good times. Intuitively I knew it wasn't healthy, especially when I had a partner, but persisted with the vice nonetheless. More recent forays into cyberporn have cemented the problem. Have gone M free for a month before and seen the benefit but now, thanks to your websites I have a much more realistic idea about how long an effective reboot may take. I used to think 4 days was a reboot. Some taboos need to be torn down. I know there are some mighty challenges ahead but if I am accountable with myself the chances of being in a meaningful relationship are far more likely. Isn't that what we all want?