I just came across this website after these few days I had of overpowering sexual energy and desire, resulting in lots of orgasms... I thought "this is crazy, I can't keep doing this! there's gotta be something better I can do with this energy !" and googled "transforming sexual energy into spiritual energy" and ended up here. I have ordered the book and am looking forward to reading it. I have also loved reading everyone's experiences and would like to say thank you for your honesty.
I realised that I can't remember the first time I had an orgasm as a child but remember masturbating from a very young age (around 7) and now I think of it, don't know if I have gone more than two weeks since then! (i'm 25 now) (Day 2 now of my new awareness! lol )
I haven't really been into internet porn but have noticed in the last few months I have been looking for movies at the movie shop with high level sex scenes and watching them more frequently, and have noticed my impulse to watch them become more frequent
Also I have been with my partner for about 4 years, we have a child together, and I have been trying to break up with him for a few months, because it's never really been what I wanted. But the times I finally listen to my unhappiness and call it quits, I find myself back in bed soon after with him which rekindles the ties that I now have to break again. We have always had a passionate and frequent sexual relationship.
Maybe its my addiction to the orgasms that is stopping me from moving forward?
We live in separate houses but I'm moving back in with him soon for 4 weeks before I move to a different town, so that will be a good challenge! I'm hoping to use it to create a friendship that involves affectionate touch, but where I can stay strong and create clear boundaries based on my needs for happiness .
I noticed that the urge is strongest for me when I'm at home alone, I think this probably started from when I was a child and taking any opportunity of having my own space. I've got lots of things to distract me (this site is a great one!) plus I have plenty of great books to read, packing up to do, and running shoes if it all gets too much!
I don't think I want to never have an orgasm again (even if my willpower allowed it haha) but I definitely want to abstain to see what happens, and to see how long it takes to get to this state of balance and feeling great that everyone talks about. Sounds pretty great to me !!
And the ida of a karezza based relationship, even from the little I've read so far, sounds pretty wonderful.
love 2 all