I just created an account, after this happened to me.
Im 23 and I came across this information 7 months ago. I was very deprressed the way things were, I was angry for apparently no reason, I knew that positive thinking is the key and all that , but it was simply impossible to think positively. And in general EVERYTHING sucked.
I one day had this thought about some girls having some aura and some dont, and this might be sexual energy so I searched for it, and everything I read made sense.
I tried it for a week, and what I recognized was this inner calmness and everything, but also it was a little bit like Extacy, MDMA. I also "looked" a little bit like I was on mdma. But I mean the good way. I experimtened for a few month with mdma, toook it probably 10 times, not too large doses. And one day I would take it for a party, and Iw as a litlte bit sleepy and had not much energy (and at that time I was masturbating like most of us) but I'd take the mdma, I was motivated, and in the mirror, there was this little bit red "glow" in the face, and the eyes were open wide. And of course the empathy, the feeling one, and bliss.And it was similar when I first stopped for a week.
Since then I never made it longer than 12 or so days, this twice, and in between always failing after few days, then starting again and so on, but overall theres a steady energy increase and all of it, but of course one has to make it through 1-2 months first.
now after 7 months experimenting, also if I fail once, I get back to the energy level where its fun gain, relatively soon, lets say 3-4 days. And when I had this thought it could be like mdma, I came across this site http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php?story=Bliss
which just confirmed my thought. ANd by thae way EVERYHTING I read here on this site, I noticed in some way just after 7 day.s The fact that there was a bigger connection to EVERYTHING to nature and EVERYONE around us if we abstain, and not only that, I think, that it makes more and more parts of the brain conscious. what I mean is, they say 10 percent is conscious, and 90 percent unconscious, yet it controlls our lives. WHat we are doing (I believe) is pulling out the unconscious into the conscious, and "miracles" are then possible. Its like being a child again, seeing the world with this glow, as Ive seen it as a child.
And on that site it says, that when we abstain chemicals are released over time, and that it could eventually become a "bliss trip" and comparable to mdma, lsd and heroin together, but all "made by our body"
And why I am saying this is, because I just had a sort of "optical" illusion. I smoked some light weed, but I have to say, I smoke a lot for 5 years, and this weed Im smoking is not that strong, and Ive been smoking it now the couple of days and also all day today, and it is definitely NOT capable of getting me this high.
What Ive experienced e was, like if Ive smoked weed the first time in my life, or this is how I could imagine LSD (never took it before). I was in the bathrooim, looking at my hand and it seemed as of not part of me. This kind of feeling I had in the very beginning when I smoked the first time. As if my spirit was observing. Then I went into my room, layed down, and suddenly my heart startewd to beat really fast (also like weed when it "comes up") and literally I had some optics then, and I thought for a second, that there were some other drugs in the weed (impossible because I know where it comes from), I was laying then on the bed, and for 1-2 seconds eveerything was VERY bright in the room, I mean the light (an effect mdma had on me when it kicks in), something weed doesnt make to me and Im experienced. after that this heartbeating and everyehitng went back to normal, and I dindt feel like I was leaving my body anymore. I LITERAYLL felt like I was leaving my body and I couldnt do anything about it (feeling you have on stronger psychedelics) and then, I had a feeling in my prostate, so I relate it to my abstinence.
Also referring to the light, Ojas which is created from sperm they say, is light. And this also connects so much into light. If your in the sun, sperm production goes up, thus ojas I would suggest.
I am very sensitive to drugs , and have all the positive and negative effects very intensively. So also when I masturbate the negative effects are very intense, but so are the postive if I stop, and I wonder if anyone else had this feeling as if he was "trippinng" or going to trip.
I mean I was literayll afraid I was going for a trip alone in the middle of the night (but as I said, I knew it makes no sence because where would anything come from i was just smoking some light weed im smoking for days and am an experienced smoker)
Also I noticed in the last weeks, that if Im lets say on day 4-5 and I get aroused by thought or whatever, and then let the arousal go, 5-10 minutes later an Extacy like high kicks in! its really amazing, how you can party wihtout taking anything and be higher than all the other people and have so much energy.
But back to the question, has anyone else got these MDMA like highs (without the shitty depression afterwards), or these LSD or super strong weed like states of consciousness?
I had this short 2-3 minute TRIP and Im on day 4 now, and am really wondering "what" Im going to see if Ill go for the entire month and then two and more!