I had a long talk with my partner last night about how "numb" I've been feeling lately. I'm usually always tired, irritated, and I frequently seek out porn to make me feel better. While she does not know I do this, she offered some other lifestyle changes that will be able to help.
Though I do need to get a little more sleep and maybe find a less stressful job, the porn definitely needs to go. I am a good person and I feel like a hypocrite when I do something good. It's like being chained down by this stuff. It sucks.
Well, today is my first day that I am resisting the temptation. I will probably be able to last the next couple days just fine, I've tried this before. Now, however, I want to end this for good.