Here is my problem :
I read Peace Between the Sheets but my boyfriend didn’t because he can’t read a book in English (we’re French). So I have translated each chapter summary, but I guess that’s not enough. Anyway I thought that wouldn’t be a problem because he was already really interested by practising non-orgasmic sex, since he read the esoteric books of Samael Aun Weor. But I agree with Marnia when she writes that "some of the vital clues for how one eludes biology were missing from the sacred sex manuals".
So we began the exchanges, but we stopped in the middle of the third one because he was “too tired” and didn’t feel like continuing. He said he felt too much pressure from me about that, and he found that I was too much stuck to this book. We had an argument and he refused any touch that night, but after four days he was ok to try again. So we began to read again exchange three and discuss about our feelings, and I said that it was important for me that we could keep a link after an argument by touching each other, even a minimal one like holding hands, but he refused, it was important for him to be free to do what he wanted. So we had an argument again (he had a dream orgasm that night) and another argument the day after : he found I was too exigent and that I needed to stand back from this book. He asked me to leave his room and to think about this.
The day after, we met to discuss about that, and I said him it was very important for me that after two years we gave a try to a closer relationship (until that we used to see each other not every day, lived in different places and didn’t sleep in the same bed when we were together). But he answered he didn’t want, he didn’t have enough enthusiasm to do so, maybe he didn’t have enough love for me… so we should better end this relationship now… And yet… we share the same values, have many common interests, wished we could have a baby many times…
But he still wants that we see each other regularly as friends, and he asked me not to hurry with another guy… I said I would like to discuss about his decision to stop our relationship later (for example two weeks after his last dream orgasm…!). In fact I’m pretty sure that the love who’s missing between us, would precisely re-appear if we try a closer relathionship.
Now my question is : Should I continue seeing him as a friend ? or should I stop seeing him so that he realizes (perhaps) that he’s missing me ? As for me, I really wish I could give it a last try before I decide that this relationship is finished.
Here is my problem :