I've always felt a little weird about my situation. I'm a good looking guy and I get approached regularly from other women. The ammount of women who have told me I'm good looking guy is quite a lot. And for some weird reason, I always felt apathic when I had to actually pursue them sexually... It was really weird, because I remember even turning down sex on occassions, or not being able to enjoy oral sex when a girl gave it to me, or the times when a girl was grinding her ass on to me, but I couldn't get it hard. Keep in mind that I'm 22 now....
I really felt weird. I taught something was wrong with me: Do I have low testosterone? Am I not masculine enough to chase after these girls. When I stumbled across this site, I couldn't really take it seriously. But once I started reading some of the "recovery stories" it really clicked. This is me! Especially this signaled to me that something was wrong: I remember being around women who were "objectively" extremely beautifull, but I felt nothing! It sucked, I tried to arouse myself consciously, but off course that doesn't work out.
3 days ago I decided to ban porn out of my life. It's now day 4 and I can already feel some changes: morning wood is happening far more frequently and harder, I also feel more focused and have more energy but I'm also slightly restless.
Anyway so far so good!
I'm going to write a post in another thread about my recovery process.