Are there any females who has become seriously ill by their spouses porn addiction. My spouse is mentally so devastated and filled with hatred and disgust that she's almost in psychosis. When we met porn was a part of my daily life and I was hiding it from her. As months went by she started to find porn website from her computer but she didn't tell me about those. First three months she was "getting to know" what I was looking but not telling me about that. She was devastated by the videos she saw, disgusting rough porn, teen porn, women with implants etc.. She hadn't encountered porn in her life before. Now she spent couple of months watching those videos I had been watching. Then one day she she had a panic attack in the middle of a street due to feelings of betrayal she had been pressing down. She had been sexually hurt in her previous life but still was able to overcome the fear to trust a man she really loved, only to find out that her spouse is porn addict. After the panic attack she told me that she knew what I was doing. At the time I didn't understand that I had a problem and was very selfish and didn't really understand what's the problem, those are only videos and pictures, nothing real, fuck I was stupid and selfish back then. I made her a promise that I wouldn't watch porn no more. It took a month until I relapsed and she found out. That was the first time I had a glimpse that I might have a problem. I started to read about inner child and about stuff that might be causing my problem and pornwatching. Slowly but surely she was getting worse and didn't want me to see her naked. We still had sex but arfterwords she felt disgusted by my touch. I was couple of months without porn but didn't have the tools to quit it entirely. I was also anxious of destroying our relationship and it got me back in watching porn sometimes and hiding about it. In the meantime we had better and worse times, but the porn was effecting on our relationship all the time. I left her to fight her battle on her own because I wasn't honest about my porn use. The she started to get more ill. She forced me to name 10 pornstars I had jacked of the most. I did it and she made an average of those and decided that she must get breast implants, botox on her lips, lose 20 pounds (She is really beautiful and has a great body), get ass implants and whiten her teeth. She started to save money for those operations and was fighting the fight to become a porn for me. Fortunately all my secrets came out before she went to the doctor. When she found out that I had been watching porn during her inner battle to change herself (about 3 months ago) it ultimately destroyed her. Then she found out about YBOP and recommended it to me and we installed safe eyes on the computers I use. That is when my rebooting started (84 days of total absence of everything) and I know i'll never go back for that shit again. But since then everything has gone worse for her, she feels more and more hatred. Everyday it is getting worse for her. One thing I would do anything for, is getting her on the road for recovery. But I don't know what to do because I can't get close to her. We're living together. Anybody there who has gone through similar hell. How to start healing? Where can she find the strength to get help? I can't change the past , but I'm being here and wan't help her in her recovery, at the moment I just want to help her to find the beautiful gracious human being she was before she met me and porn.