The last thread got to be 2 pages long so let's continue the conversation here.
Thanks to everyone who has read and contributed to my journey. I feel in some way you are walking this with me and that is comforting.
"When we last left our hero, he was struggling with life's twists, turns, and pitfalls..."
Nothing much to ad today. I am on day 29 of my recovery.
My insides are hollow and mush and that has everything to do with my life circumstances at the moment.
My body hurts. But again, that's situational.
I do not have an urge to re-lapse. Far from it. I don't have an urge for much. Just to be alone and cry really.
I'm at work, but that is not going to be productive today so I am going to skip out of Dodge early.
In the past, stress like this, loneliness like this would give me an excuse to relapse. It won't this time. That is comforting.
As I said before, this is the new me. I like the new me. It gives me more energy, postive thoughts, clarity, memory, confidence, and integrity. I like the new me alot. I don't want to meet the old me again ever, and I'm sorry anyone did.
I can only go forward, not back. This sad feeling will pass, and come back, and pass. It's all part of life isn't it? Just not the part we want.
Marina - is there "anti-dopemine?" Something that is released when we are sad? Anti-Reward center stuff? Because if there is, then that is what is flowing through my veins right now. Would be interesting to see what the brain does when sad, as well as when hopped up on dopemine.